Wednesday, September 29, 2010

I Wonder....

It seems that lately we begin every conversation with "I wonder...". I wonder if she'll be blonde like Ethan or brunette like me. I wonder what she'll love and if her interests will be similar to my own or will they mirror Ethan's.

I am now 30 weeks pregnant and almost all of my thoughts relate to her. I can be in the middle of preparing something for work, and wonder if she'll be a reader like I am and become so distracted that I have to go to Amazon.com and check if they have a book I loved when I was little and try to resist the urge to buy it for her.


But mostly I wonder what she will look like. I was the only brunette grandchild on my Mom's side and spent most of my own youth wanting to be blonde like Jill and ALL of my cousins. Plus Ethan is blonde, so naturally I wonder if she'll be blonde and at the same time would like her to be brunette like me. I wonder if she'll have Ethan's beautiful blue eyes or hazel like me, will she have freckles or dimples, culry or straight hair. I could go on and on (and usually do at 3:00 AM when I am fighting some insomnia.)

I went through some old photos and found the below two of Ethan and I as babies, and all I can think is "I wonder..."